Thoughts I'll Someday Regret | Version 1

Thoughts I’ll Someday Regret | Version 1

I decided to start sharing a few of the 1 million random thoughts I have throughout the day. You’ll either explore the thought w me or immediately get a clue of what I’m dealing with when it comes to my brain.

This post may turn into a series. I can thank my one & only BRAIN for the unlimited thought. Writing about makeup, clothing, or anxiety everyday can get boring. How many new eyeshadow palettes do you actually need, you know? (The answer is 0. You need 0.)

It’s the easy tv shows & podcasts about nonsense that saved me from my debilitating anxiety years ago. Sometimes you need a random conversation to give your working brain ease. That’s why you’ll never hear me bash someone for “wasting” time watching tv or taking a day to lay on the couch & watch “junk” tv. That junk & those breaks have HELPED me more than I’ll be able to explain to anyone. It’s still my crutch when anxiety strikes it’s beautiful head.

I digress.

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Thoughts I’ll Someday Regret | Version 1

I hope this Class A elevator stalls so I can read: Naturally assuming it would get stuck as it beeped in between floors. In that event, I would have my phone but wouldn’t use it, unless necessary, in order to save battery. In the thought, I noticed a book I’ve been dying to finish in my purse & found myself hoping the elevator actually would get stuck.

If I were a guy, I hope I wouldn’t be a BRO: I know I’m a typical Caucasian person & BRO is in my genetic makeup, but I hope I would strive for something different. I imagine woven bracelets would be involved.
What race are Arabs? Did you know they’re Asian? That’s the box Wafiq checks. But are they though?
Screw being a child. Being an adult is SO much better.
How did we survive before reverse cameras in our car? I pulled out of a parking spot w a car that didn’t have a camera & was 87% confident I was going to hit someone. I went slow enough that it wouldn’t hurt them.
Is it better to be oblivious? Those people seem happier.
But are all babies cute? I’m leaning towards… no?
If I decided to stop eating meat, could I survive without eating plants too? I’m a murderer when my plants die & a goddess of Earth when my plants bloom. Surely I wouldn’t intentionally kill & then eat them?

If I acknowledge that Deja Vu is actually me seeing into the matrix, will “they” murder me? A few nights ago I woke up in the middle of the night, realized the strong possibility that we live in a matrix, and thought I’d be murdered because of my discovery. “They” were afraid I would tell others.
Why do swear words make people cringe? They’re words. With letters.
Who made rules & expectations? Why do we follow them exactly?

Fun, right? Besides that. I noticed I have an increasingly harder time smiling in conversations. I started noticing people think I’m angry or not enjoying a conversation & I can only assume that’s because of my facial expression. I started fake smiling in all my conversations. I politely ask my brain to tell my mouth to form a smile from the start of a conversation. The results have been good. If you feel like people aren’t responding to you the way you imagine, try it.

The other problem is, I hate small talk. I find such minimal use for it, that’s probably why I’m naturally not smiling.

Feel free to add Thoughts You’ll Someday Regret below. The more serious the better. Jk.

Have a great week! See you soon 🙂

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