One Year Later, Anaphylactic Shock
We’re in March. And March is a big deal for me. It used to be because March is the month SXSW festival hits Austin, TX and the city turns into a jungle gym of adventure. People flood the city, coming from everywhere, and little Austin Texas doesn’t seem so little anymore.
But this year March is a big deal because it’s been 1 YEAR since I had Anaphylactic Shock. A year ago today, I was just getting into the swing of SXSW with the pre-parties & early events. I remember the weather was gloomy & made me feel like staying home might be a better option than joining the crowds. Gloomy weather can be a gift to an introvert because it makes staying inside less unusual, ha!
I remember I had just gone to the Wellness Expo the day before & was planning to go back after brunch that morning. I was considering buying the Everly Well at home Allergy Testing, which is a funny coincidence considering my next year was about to be filled with allergy testing on top of allergy testing. Although, the at-home tests wouldn’t have prevented a reaction that day as I’m still not sure what caused it.
That morning, Wafiq & I woke up & went to grab breakfast downtown before heading back to the Wellness Expo & later a movie with a friend. I ate my small, noodle lunch & drank my mimosa before we headed out the door of the restaurant. On the way to the car, we stopped in a little boutique shop, had a tiny glass of champagne with strawberries floating on top, & I tried on these killer heels I was debating buying. Then, very immediately, I felt my entire body… hurt. My stomach started cramping, I ran outside, the inside of my ears itched uncontrollably, like no other itch I’ve ever had. An itch that couldn’t be reached. And a big, painful cough took over. One that felt like knives were being pushed up & down my throat. In the back of my mind, I knew this cough was unusual, not a regular allergy symptom I was used to. We ran to the car thinking I needed Zrytech, not even knowing what Anaphylactic Shock was at the time. But as soon as we got in the car I noticed my lips, tongue, face & eyes started growing rapidly. I could see my reflection in the rearview mirror & the puffy form my face started shaping. Realizing it wasn’t just in my head. I then noticed hives all over my body, my neck and my feet the worst. We knew we had to get to a doctor fast because my entire body was, breaking. It was obvious. As Wafiq focused on getting us out of the parking garage, I put a doctor in the GPS & the second I saw 4 minutes away I knew I would be ok. Wafiq almost blew through the glass front doors of building with the car trying to get us inside & as soon as we did I was shot with an Epi-Pen & my body started morphing back to normal.
The first time I told that story I was so afraid, so I wanted to retell it with a year of time on my side. I’m incredibly relieved it’s been a year since that day. I wanted this day to come the entire year. I wanted TIME to pass, to give me hope this reaction wasn’t going to be a weekly occurrence. Unfortunately, I had another Anaphylactic Shock response a month after that one, at my friend’s wedding. I had a better handle on the situation then, knowing what I needed to do & what to expect, but it left me scared to my core & like my body was turning on me. I felt like I was so nice to my sweet body & fed it well & loved it & cuddled it – how could it be acting like this?
Well, since then, I’ve had allergy flare-ups but luckily no major anaphylactic shock experiences. March, one year later, is a big deal because so much has changed. I’ve been carrying around a freaking Epi Pen everywhere I go now, everywhere! Going through security checkpoints, on my walks around the lake, nights out. Being a person with an epi-pen still feels new, not like a YEAR has gone by. I shouldn’t be caught off guard again & I have that education in the back of my mind. My epi-pen is my comfort blanket now & it makes me feel smart.
One problem with my brain is the perspective part. Since this has happened & I’ve seen several doctors, they all tend to share their horror stories to help put mine in perspective. Here’s the problem, you tell me a horror story? I’m literally going to wait for it to happen to me. That perspective shit doesn’t work for me, it actually allows my brain to realize worse can & will happen. I’m working on fixing that, but in the meantime, I like to imagine the worst is behind me. The worst HAS happened, it’s only going up from here. Praise be.
Thank you for following me through this insane {food} year, I say that because I know I had a lot of emotionally charged posts. I can say after going through several doctors without a lot of answers, we are our own best advocates for our health. We know our bodies better than anyone & we have to take charge of them.
I’d also like to mention – let’s all remember to be grateful for our health when we wake up in the morning. I know it sounds cliche, but health alone is such an immeasurable gift. We don’t need much more than that & a sprinkle of love to have a great day.
Have a great week everyone!
Be thoughtful
Xx
Wow, I can’t believe it’s been a year! I hope and pray that you never have to experience that again. Love you and your blog!