I would love to say I’m back with Taylor Swift in my ears but I have 1,000 upgrades, login/password confusion, and download issues happening in iTunes right now so no Taylor Swift for me! Might have to take it the old fashion way of buying a tangible CD or pirating. I’ve only been looking forward to this album since she disappeared.
I had a few traumatizing events happen the last few weeks, Jury Duty, work overload, and a book that rocked my socks. The combination of everything changed me. Really changed me in my core, opened my eyes, freaked me out, kept me awake… I’m going to follow up with a few posts on those events in the next week or so because it’s a lot to take on in one post, for me. Especially since I haven’t written a post in awhile, I wanted to say hi first! Immediately after Jury Duty I started thinking – fuck blogging, it’s not important enough. I kind of protested myself, to myself? My eyes were opened WIDE and I really shut the door on blogging, I was completely shifted in my thoughts. I couldn’t come on and write about shoes, or festivals, or being happy – when that’s the opposite of what I gave a shit about. But then, being away made me feel anxious, I love writing. And it doesn’t have to be roses and smiles all the time, because life isn’t roses all the time. And my writing doesn’t have to be perfect or make perfect sense, because no one is perfect. No one knows everything. I also learned that being away from blogging & writing didn’t feel right.
I’ve anxiously been waiting to have a post schedule again. I use my blog as a creativity outlet but realized it’s more than that for me, it’s a way to express what’s in my head and talk to a few people that read. My goal is to eventually talk back and forth (I think some people call that conversation 🙂 ) with readers. I know everything I say or think can be changed with a little extra knowledge and I’m going to do my best to search for it! And always hear the other side on all my thoughts, and I encourage you to do the same.
Needless to say, waaaay out of the holiday spirit this year. I don’t even remember Halloween. Did it happen already? This might not seem like a big deal, but as a blogger I should give a shit. And my whole life I have – I love costumes and dressing up. I’m typically VERY holiday. Celebrations excite me and I’m always down to participate… but this year I haven’t gotten into the swing of things, just haven’t and I probably won’t. I’m relieved, I don’t want to holiday this year. I want 2017 to be the year that I’m not focused on holidays but focused on myself and upcoming plans. I’ve done this once before, when I first moved to Dubai. I skipped holidays, and you know what? It wasn’t so bad. So this year will be somewhat similar, not a total skip, but pretty darn close.Read More