“No woman on earth doesn’t give a fuck—no woman is that cool—she’s just hidden her fire. Likely, it’s burning her up.” – Glennon Doyle, Love Warrior
Ok. Ok. So when I first mentioned my few weeks of life changing events I said it was a combination of things. One was Jury Duty but the other was a book. Somehow, the stars aligned in a way that helped me read Love Warrior by Glennon Doyle Melton during my week of Jury Duty. fyi – There is plenty of opportunity to read while on Jury Duty, it feels like you’re constantly sitting in the small Jury Room waiting for the courtroom to be ready. I was easily able to finish reading Love Warrior… and wow.
I first heard of Glennon Doyle on Chelsea! about a year ago. Since then, I’ve been wanting to read her book, but procrastinated. I picked it up, and even read a page or 2 several different times, but always ended up putting it down. At first glance, the book seemed too emotional & strong (if that makes sense) which scared me away from it. Emotionally deep books (and movies) gets my anxiety on it’s tip toes so I tend to avoid them. However, Love Warrior was the only book I packed in my purse for Jury Duty, leaving me no choice but to get through it.
Lucky for me, because this book changed me in a similar way Jury Duty did.
Let me explain. I recently had a truce with my anxiety, where I looked it in the eye with a smile & shifted my mind to start using it as a tool. (Also on Chelsea!), a woman being interviewed asked Chelsea to name 3 qualities she likes about herself, and they couldn’t be physical. I listened, laughed and fell asleep. In the morning, I was driving to work & thought about that same question. 3 qualities I like about myself, and they can’t be physical. One of the answers that kept creeping in my mind was – anxiety. Wtf. I thought anxiety was something I hated. But, I started feeling like Batman’s bestie. Powerful, relieved, and excited. I told myself, anxiety is a superpower. A freaking superpower! Because of anxiety, I’m uber aware of feelings & emotions. They’re loud, and they’re always there for me to hear. And if I can control them a little, they can be a badass superpower. And that’s exactly what I’m going to make them.
I can’t tell you how good I felt to finally choose to have anxiety on my side, rather than against me. I went around saying that to people. Like, I was excited. I can get WAY more into my journey with anxiety in probably a 11,298 series post, but this moment was a mountainous achievement. I wanted to cure myself for so long & get ride of that asshole anxiety, but finally accepted it. As a superpower.
I’m telling you this because… the story of how Glennon Doyle came up with Warrior was almost the same way I came up with anxiety as a superpower. I was nodding my head, flipping the pages as fast as I could the entire way through Love Warrior, in total shock someone else had a mind so similar to mine. When I got towards the end & heard her story about being a warrior – I nearly died. Yes! She felt lost for so long, up and down, back and fourth and finally accepted her thoughts, emotions, and feelings and found herself being a “Warrior”. Hense her book – Love Warrior.
My mouth literally dropped at the end. Yes!
Love Warrior is a book full of compassion, and believing what you’re feeling. And figuring things out. And not being perfect! I have to go back & tab off tons of pages full of awesome reminder quotes.
I do not do this book any justice in a small blog post so do yourself a wonderful favor & read the book! Nothing has connected with me more & could better describe what’s always happening in my head. The entire time I was reading I understood. I was nodding. Wanting to cry. Feeling together with her. Like someone else is out there, like me.
This book changed me, in an awesome way. And I hope it connects with you too!
Have a happy Monday & be thoughtful